The dancing five fingers

Daddy got bored and decided to show me his tap dancing fingers.

Now, who said I was Slow?

Moved

I've moved to http://iloveplaids.livejournal.com

Please update your links! Thanks!

A ray of light

Am very touched with the super kind and caring souls around me...

Got a call from Claudia this afternoon. This sweet girl has called to console and give me encouragement right after she saw my previous entry. Isn't that really sweet? Haha

In addition...

Xin, Christal and Linda made time to meet up with me for Minds on Tuesday! We played many different games and the girls definitely cheered me up! Too bad Linda had to go off in the evening, nevertheless the 3 of us still had great fun because it was ladies night!

I definitely recommend you peeps to go Minds on Tuesday because it is TOTALLY free! provided you dont order any drinks or food la.

We then went to Mac for our late dinner and to chat about school stuff... My dear girls, thank you for listening to me. I know its tiring to listen to a person whining about the same thing over and over again so I really appreciate you guys for being wonderful listening ears...

After that we continued our chat with some oversized Ice cream! Haha! It was then the 2 of them asked me how I wanna celebrate my birthday! At first I said I want to dress up and make up la, so that can take nice pics ma... then Xin suggested we should do something more sporty!

*grin* We have then decided we should go for a picnic cum cycling or blading session at ECP followed by feasting at Marina South! Hee! For my birthday celebration, we will have a chalet! Bwahahaha so last minute but I like the spontaneous side of us! Immediately booked a chalet at Downtown East! Next Monday! Super impromptu rite? *Mega smile*

So, I'm looking forward to all the meetings with my friends!

Monday - Chalet with Xin & Christal
Tuesday - Meetup with May & Pat
Wednesday - Picnic @ ECP
Thursday - Jurong Birdpark with the Love
Friday - Meetup with En
Saturday - Meetup with Eve, Jas & Yu
Sunday - BBQ @ home with family
Monday - Meeting in school (boohooo)


Yeah man, meeting in school on my actual day! Sian... Too bad my tuition friends will not be free to meet up. Oh, Shan too!!!


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Fuck the world

Cried my heart out totally last night.

Honestly, I cannot accept the fact that I cant get in especially when there are other friends who did not perform as well as I do in school got the offer.

Am I so fucking sway or what? I worked damn hard in this fucking school, I chiong my fucking way in my practicum school and got a fucking distinction.

But what happens? Some of my friends who leave on the dot at 1.30pm got the offer.

Was browsing some of the pics that I took with the NIE girlies while listening to some music. Was feeling damn emotional la. Lots of mixed feelings.

Firstly, I feel sad because I will not be able to experience the same thing with them because ALL of them got it except me.

Secondly, I think it will be more difficult for me to meet up with them to have crazy outings but they can still hang out together anytime in school or near school area, which I can't join them. Which further leads to the thought of drifting apart from my girlies. This is a freaking important factor for me because I cherish them as all my besties. What will I be without them?

Eve, Yu, Jas:
I really love you girls and I take the 3 of you as "my gang". When I tell my friends outside school I'm going out with my gang, they all know who you are. I don't know how to put things in words (because I'm not in the right mind now), but YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO ME.

Xin:
Thank you for being the sometimes-bimbotic-and-naive-but-sometimes-mature friend. I truly love your company and I cherish you as one of my besties in school too (out of that gang though). But I really cherish the friendship between us. The advices, the encouragements, the everything. Oh ya, You are the first bestie who have shared a fitting room with me and seen me in bra (ok, digress, but that represents how comfortable I am with you), not forgetting you are the only friend who has bunked over in my hall.

I know I am freaking stupid to make this sound like I'm migrating and leaving this whole damn world. In fact, fuck the world. *sigh* However, I do feel I am migrating to another world apart from you girls.

For all of you whom I have met in NIE, thank you for sharing a part of your life with mine.

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To Steph:

I'm not sure if you ever still read my blog. But I will do this anyway.
Yes, I did not forget you. I'm not trying to act like a fucking saint here, but yes, I still think of you sometimes. I was browsing through some pics we took last time and stumbled upon your birthday pics and video clips. I cried out loud too can? The fun times that the 5 of us shared before everything happened was unforgettable. I'm not trying to gain back friendships or whatsoever, I just do not like regret.

I hate the fact of not telling the person I love 'I love you'. That applies to friends too. The imagination (perhaps you already did it real-life) of you throwing away the photo frame that I did for you breaks my heart.

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Anyway, just to repeat myself, I love all of you people who have been part of my life. Thank you.

Opportunity?

I studied hard, I worked extremely hard, I got a good grade for Practicum, but I didn't get a letter.


Pathetic shit.


Especially when ALL my gfs around me got the offer. Sigh.

Never enough shoes!

Popped over to the Charles & Keith warehouse sale yesterday! Luckily we drove there quite early, didn't really have to queue! My singaporean-auntie-mode was turned on once we stepped into the warehouse (literally!).

The constant pushing and digging for heels and bags... yadda yadda... NEVERENDING! It's really the SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST! You strong, you push, you dig, you win! The ladies shoes are really cheap la... the most expensive range of shoes cost only $19! The rest cost about $15, $12, $5, and even $3 a pair (and buy 1 get 1 free!!!! which means $1.50 each pair) Can you imagine the craze of everyone with such rock bottom prices??? OMG!

I bought 4 pairs of goodies at only $19 each! hahahaha! The most expensive kinds la... leather pointed heels etc etc. I realise I'm REALLY getting old when I was taking pictures of the shoes I bought. They are so OL can... arghhhh


My favourite pair! (I'm a sucker for rounded pumps la)
Usual price: $39.90





Also my favourite pair! (Very soft leather, comfy!)
Usual price: $42.90





Black pointed heels
Usual price: $37.90





Denim girly heels
Usual price: $34.90







Yeah!!! Battle won!!! Bwahahahaha


Anyway, I've been contemplating for quite long whether to change my blog to wordpress or livejournal. I'm quite sick of not able to have private posts using blogspot... After eve's relocation and impressive advertisement of livejournal, I've been thinking hard if I wanna change... wordpress is quite similar also la, but i hate their frequent syntax errors!

Decision, decision, decision..........

Contradiction

I have such mixed feelings now... I ought to be happy now as everything is coming to an end and I finally have time to meet up with friends and relax yadda yadda....

I'm glad I got posted back to the same school (this means the relationships that I have built will definitely make me feel more at home since I will be back to a familiar ground). My CTs and former CTs are also very happy la that we can work together again... I love them a lot! Haha (cough, perhaps 1 or 2 exception la)

Hai...

I accompanied Dad and Mum to TTSH for Dad's checkup. This time is not for his accident injury thingy, but for the tumour. I have not told any of you except cabrina, simply because I really had no time to contact anyone during that period of time. Cab was around online, and my nick on MSN roused her to pop me a msg. Cab, thanks for caring. =) *hugz*

During March (my busiest weeks), the doctors found a lump in my Dad's liver. They deduced it is a benign one. It was reported that the tumour is approximately 2cm plus plus in size. My dad is extremely reluctant to undergo surgery as one of my uncles died at a very young age because he took the surgery and apparently the cancer cells spread to his whole body after the cut (all my uncles including Dad have Hep B, which increases the chance of getting liver cancer). So he told the Doc to give him 2 months time to see how things goes while he take TCM.

Yesterday, just 2 months later, we were shocked to hear from the doc that the tumour has almost doubled its size to 6cm plus plus. He says he will need to have a meeting with other doctors to finalise the procedures that Dad can take now. Surgery might not be suitable.

It hurts me so much to see Dad trying to be humourous and cheerful. I know he is afraid of losing us all, afraid of leaving us so early, afraid of leaving us all behind wondering if we can survive without him, afraid that we will live miserably simply because theres no more money coming in. In fact, I am fucking scared too. Nothing can describe the fear in me now. I have no idea how to help him except to find information online.

I am unable to feel happy for this whole practicum thing too. I am so troubled now that I cant even sleep. I don't know what to do now. I hope to urge Dad to undergo surgery, but even the doc now cannot confirm with us the success rate of the operation. How can we let Dad go under the knife just like that???

Now we will arrange another checkup with Raffles because we feel that there are limitations in a government hospital and perhaps a private one can offer more solutions. I really pray for the best.

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Dear heavenly Father,

Thank you for the tiring but smooth sailing and fulfilling practicum. Thank you for giving me strength to stay strong during that period of time and blessing me with the luck to receive a good grade.

Father, please bless my family with good health and strength to overcome this crisis. Especially my dad, lord please bless him with the optimism and guide him to make a correct decision. At this time when we are all weak, lord we commit ourselves to you and please guide us to the correct path to take.

Lord please grant all good things to be upon my dad. Please heal my dad. We hope the cancer cells will not spread and hopefully we can get rid of the tumour at that targetted area successfully and please let dad recover from this disease.

Not forgetting our friends and relatives, dear lord please bless them with good health and may all good things to be upon them. Please bless the other trainees to have a good start or to continue successfully in their careers.

All these we pray in Jesus's mighty name, Amen.

That's my love.

The love sent me a sms yesterday.

"Bee tmr we go watch si bai de man san ok?"


I spent almost a freaking minute to figure out what he is saying.
What he actually meant was this:

"Bee tmr we go watch spiderman 3 ok?"

Duh. That's my love. -_-"

Thank God for everything

Alas it's good news!!!


Now I am left with one last freaking observation and I'm done.


Hope all of you are doing fine... and I really really wanna meet up with all of u soon! =)


Till then!

So tired so tired...

Basically, I treat the coming week as the last week of my practicum. After next week, I am not going to give a damn about everything. I'm simply too tired to carry on. If the professors in the DED module ask me again what kills the passion of teachers. I will not say parents and pupils.

But its practicum and the freaking workload. Practicum kills the passion of most teachers I believe.

Even though I "traded" some lesson plans with a few of you, I simply cannot use them at all because my school have their own I.T programs that I need to incorporate into my lessons.

I have to freaking start all my lesson plans from scratch. This is exceptionally tiring. Feel like giving up sometimes. *Sigh*

Next week is gonna be an extrememly tough week for me, and I hope everything will go smoothly and hopefully can hear some good news.

Till then.

My shoulders are not so strong.

Last Friday was supposed to be an important day for me as my Supervisor and CT will be observing my lesson formally. I already felt very stressed and tired becos of the super-heavy workload and the 24/7 working routine. I work 7am to 7pm almost everyday and after reaching home, theres more marking and lesson planning.

But the day became SHOCKINGLY IMPORTANT to me. I received a phonecall from Mum at 4am in the morning, saying that my Dad was admitted to TTSH and waiting for operation. I literally jumped out of bed, prepared myself and rushed to the hospital la.

I was worried sick for my Dad, but also very worried about my observation. Hai.To cut things short, observation was carried out smoothly and currently my Dad is still in pain - the after effects of the operation. For the past 2 days, I slept less than 5 hours each day. Morning, visiting. Afternoon, home to pick up siblings and visiting again. Night, send mum to work and visiting again. Middle of the night, pick mum from work and send her to the hospital.

I feel so tired and drained out, both physically and mentally. Today is Sunday and I have not done a single lesson plan for Monday. The stress bug is here again, and Dad will be discharged today too. So there are too many things for me to do. I am so fucking screwed and I really detest my life now.

I have to worry about work, and have to worry about Dad. I even have to worry about my siblings, because they simply cannot think properly. How I wish they can grow out of this irritating phase soon.

For the following weeks, I am not sure how I am gonna handle the work and stress from both sides. I will need to bring dad back for occupational therapy, as well as changing his dressings in the polyclinic. I have to clean his wound everyday too.

Fortunately, somehow I am farmiliar with these. I can totally understand the feeling of going to the polyclinic to change dressing and to clean wound everyday. So at least I know how Dad feels, and make sure his wound remains clean and not infected. Hopefully his wound can recover completely soon.

My shoulders are seriously not so strong afterall.

Dear heavenly Father, thank you for giving me the power to carry out the lesson smoothly last Friday. I pray for the power to stay strong at this phase of my life, and I pray that your healing hands will be upon my Dad and Mum who is not feeling well too. I pray that you can grant power in my siblings for them to understand the situation and do the best they can for our family and their studies. I pray that you can grant me concentration so that I can do well in work and lastly, good health for everyone in this world. Amen.

Hippo-ceros!

Yipee!! The Love and I are going to the Zoo tmr! Shall take lotsa photos of the animals!!! Upload them soon! Now have to pray for good weather tmr haha =)

Enjoy your holidays, everyone!

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Its so demoralising to see friendships turning to ash...

Mummy's birthday!

It was my mum's birthday last Sunday. The Love and I booked a place at this Teochew restaurant at Macpherson road as the birthday treat! The place looks quite traditional and old, but I must say I give two thumbs up for its food and the cheap packages!!!

We ordered the package for 8 person @ $138! One good thing is there is no service charge hehe... So at least dun haf to worry about the +++ =D

The dishes are also quite 'expensive' usually la... So we think its super worth it la~~ If any of you are interested to go try try, its address is:

Swa Garden Restaurant
No. 540-542 MacPherson Road
Singapore 368223
Tel: 67445009
Business hours: 12noon - 2.30pm & 6pm - 10pm

We had the following dishes:
1. Teochew Fresh Cold Crab (Steamed crab and served cold. Crabs must be very fresh!)
2. CNY White Belly Fish (This is a CNY dish, usual price 1kg about $65!!!!!)
3. Claypot Delicacy (Including baby abalone, sea cucumber, fresh scallops etc etc!)
4. Steamed Herbal Chicken (The herbal taste is really very strong! *Yummy*)
5. Steamed Garoupa (Freshly steamed in Teochew style)
6. Crispy Salad Prawns (The prawns are very fresh! QQ!)
7. Stewed Eight Treasure Vegetables (but we changed it to Scallops with Broccoli)
8. Swa Garden Fried Kway Teow (The restaurant is famous for their very own dish!!!)
9. Dessert of The Day (We had Ou Ni aka Yam Paste!!!)

Oh ya we ordered the cold crab and white belly fish additionally...

Take a look at the pics that day ba!!!

Me all ready to go! (with my P-plate automobile) heh heh


Waiting for the food patiently...


The women in the family!


Mummy and I


The very fresh Teochew Cold Crab!!!


The very-usually-expensive dish! Scallops, sea cucumber!!! Droolz~~~


Chinese New Year traditional white belly fish!!!


Fresh prawns, scallops and my favourite Brocolli


Herbal Chicken!


Teochew Steamed Garoupa


Crispy Salad Prawns! (I ate a few before snapping the pic! haa i too greedy)


Many people go there just to eat this kway teow! Very nice!


This is the place...






My family! The Love took the pic thats y he's not in the pic!


I am super over-dressed because everyone dont bother to dress up!!! duh.


Please pardon my astonished face. BWAHAHAHAHA

My virgin drive!

I had my first attempt in driving on the road without an instructor today! But of cos Dad is around just in case I kalang kabor in the mid way.

Mum, Dad, The love and myself were in the car so I feel a little scared at first since I am responsible for 4 lives! So for the first try I drove to our neighbourhood market so that we can have lunch, and most importantly the journey is super short la... everything was smooth and I managed to try out real parking without poles! Hehe!

After everything we went home of cos... after I successfully parked the car and have turned off the engine, Dad said "On the engine, now you driving to Telok Blangah to fetch sis from her tuition."

I was like... "WHAT THE!?!?!?!?!?!" Here I am finally sighing with relief that I have completed his test but to realise there was a bigger test coming up!!! Immediately I recalled the way he taught me swimming when I was young.

When I was about 6 years old, he brought me to the worst oldest swimming pool in Singapore (at river valley area). The walls of the pool is not tiled at all, you can see raw cement with algae growing out, and the "drains" were full of mosquitoes. I was crying when i saw the pool la, but dad pushed me into the pool and commanded me to swim to the finishing point. Of cos I cried harder and ask him to come save me! But he say I can only come up when I reach the finishing point, so I struggled and "thread water"... finally reached the point, and realised that's what swimming is all about.

Ok, out of point.

So my moral of the story is the way he teach me a skill is always very straight to the point and harsh. The love and I were in shock when we realise I have to drive along the expressways (which is like darn dangerous and scary for me can???). But dad insisted I start the engine and leave. Argh!

But of cos its good! Unknowingly, I've conquered places like Suntec and Vivo! I can drive there le! HAHAHA!

So, eventually I decided to make the best out of it... Jiayou! Some pictures of my virgin drive today! Haahaa!

The Love and I before the start off...


Anxious but still have to pose for cam...


Adjusting my mirrors...


Almost ready...


Leaving my home!


Waiting for the pedestrians...


Turning into Benjamin Sheares bridge!


The love actually took a video of me without me knowing!!! Arghhh! But its good la, can save it as a momento! Haha... my first Benjamin Sheares attempt! Please pardon the radio and the stupid sound that I produced near the end of the video when a car suddenly appears beside me. BWHAHAHAAHA.




From Geylang to Telok Blangah, we took the Nicoll Highway, Benjamin Sheares and ECP (is it correct? I haf no freaking idea hahaha).

From Telok Blangah, Dad told me to go by CTE so that I can get more exposure to the roads! We took the longer route so as to let me feel more and to learn la... After CTE we went out through Moulmein then McNair area, then Kallang, and finally back home!!! I must say I learnt a lot through driving long journeys like that!



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A great start for 2007

24th January 2007 - A wonderful day that I will always remember!!!

Why? Because I fared well for my DCM Microteaching! Received many positive feedbacks from classmates and tutor. Definitely lighten my burden for the day!

The 2nd and MOST IMPORTANT thing is.....


I PASSED MY TP!!!!!!!!!



Haha! The boyfriend and I passed our driving tests on our first attempts!!! There were actually 14 (including us) testis testees for our time slot. But I was shocked to see only 5 of us when we proceeded to watch the video (only those who pass will watch).

So its like, 9 failures and 5 passed. The bf and I were in the lucky 5!!! Haha... I am very happy now! CNY can drive lo~~~~~~~~

I would like to thank:
- Those of you who sent me good luck sms-es and telling me not to be a kancheong spider.

- Xin, who took the effort to make me a card wishing me good luck for my Microteaching and TP. So sweet rite? Hehe!

- Eve and Marie, for advising me not to get any points in the circuit.

- My DCE tutor, Ms Jessie Png, for announcing to the WHOLE CLASS that I am taking my test and giving me so so so much pressure (can you imagine if I failed and I have to face all of them?????????). On the other hand, its the pressure that made me very determined to pass too! So its a blessing in disguise!

- My future mummy-in-law, who helped me lots lots with my Microteaching materials the day before till 12 midnight, and prayed hard for the 2 of us to pass our TP.

- My Love, who helped me with the Microteaching materials as well, and continuously tell me we will pass and holding my hands firmly all the while before the test.

- God (is a general label for me, you dont expect me to type Guanyin Niang Niang or Da Bo Gong or Jesus rite???), for answering my prayers and blessing me with the luck of smooth traffic and the power of overcoming every stages in the circuit with zero points.


I'm now a qualified driver!!! Time to go buy p-plate lo!! *megawatt grin* Viv is a happy girl!!!!!!!!

However, I am sad because the pretty IC photo that I have prepared cannot be used!!!! That person said it is too red!!!!!! Walau sian... end up went to take instant photo. Looks like shit lor. Duh.

Just another entry

Sorry for not blogging for almost 2 weeks... Its too cosy at home with the DVD marathons, nice food, and my bed. I've practically been slacking at home, meeting up with my peeps during the holiday i.e.

Settlers day with Xin, Silvia, and Christal.
Alleybar chill out with Michelle, Claudia, Xin, and Christal.
Going to Wanyu's place for some girly afternoon.
Dinner with Karen just before she moves to KL for work.
Xmas celebration with Xin, Silvia, and Christal.
Xmas celebration with Eve, Wanyu, and Jasmine (hereafter named The Girlies).
BBQ at home with my loves.
Mahjong session with the girlies.
KTV session with the girlies.

Not forgetting my hectic driving lessons as well as my Kickboxing sessions that I am estatic to say that it is finally over.


Rounding up for 2006 seems a difficult task for me as I have forgotten what really happened. I'll just write down what I remember la...

At the beginning year, there a terrible thrash out with one of the friends whom usually hung out with the girlies. I was disappointed things did not work out, but I am glad after such a long time I managed to at least go back to talking terms with her again. Even though its always hi bye. There were times when I was looking at our old photographs, listening to some emo songs and I immediately have the urge to tell her I just pray all the best to her in whatever things she do. But somehow after I express myself I am held back by her sorta cold replies. But at least there was some talking. It's good.

During Feburary, an event marked a significant milestone of my 23 years on earth. I managed to perform @ The Esplanade for the Accapella, Choir, and Sing & Strum which simply means my Solo piece. It was also a night of pure happiness and touching moments because most of my friends came to support me (they have to pay for the tickets somemore), and most importantly, My Family & My Future Family (the Love and his family la) all came! Can you imagine my love and gratitude towards them? All of them, sacrificing their time and coming down to support me. It certainly made me feel loved. =)


Oh ya, The Love and I actually booked a chalet to celebrate Valentines Day. It's super funny because there's only the 2 of us, which we have made a pact never to do such a silly thing again. It's seriously boring and pathetic to see other big groups bbqing together and us 2 small fry cooking some food. Bwahahaha.

Us girlies had a chalet on the next day, so that I dun haf to go home and come back for chalet again. Just move next door. Haha am I smart or wat. =D It was definitely a fun-filled chalet and it definitely brought us closer to one another. We had fun relaxing at the Jacuzzi pool, bbqing food, watching vcds (but end up falling asleep), attempting to eat marshmallows in chocolate fondue (but got bad sore throat cos of the burning chocolate), and eating prawns for breakfast (are we in the right mind or wat?).

The next big thing I can remember will be the Love's and my holiday @ Taiwan. This is the first time we did not go Bangkok (haha) and I'm glad we chose this place (even though Bangkok is still our favorite). Firstly there was no communication barrier, it is so much simple for F&E peeps. Secondly, the food there is damn nice la. Thirdly, we have experienced the world's fastest elevator that can shoot up to 89 storeys within 30 seconds (do your calculations) with amazing light show in the lift. Which means we have been to Taiwan's tallest building - the Taipei 101. Fourthly, we took a ride on the World's Second Tallest Ferris Wheel. It is super scary la, when we are stuck right at the peak and the cold wind gushing against our carriage producing the creaking sounds. Argh. But overall, it is a super memorable vacation.

Followed by Mel's ROM. The first ROM I attended and I am so touched by the pure and amazing love that Melissa and Lance share. So I was very gan dong that I almost teared when they said their vows and seal it with a kiss. Awwww.

It was my birthday next, with a nice celebration with the girlies having lunch and games @ Settlers before heading to Mac'Nonner to have a birthday party. Hahaha. Had a great gathering with my sec 4 peeps too, many attended so I had a good chance catching up with them. Not forgetting the Flaming Lamborghini they ordered for me as a treat for the Bday Girl la. My virgin attempt k? *Sounds so wrong* =P

Then my Teaching Assistantship. Though it lasted about 1 month, I learnt so many things from the teachers there, and I must say I am freaking lucky to have met my Cooperating Teacher, Mrs Ho. She is an angel to me. We joke, we laugh, we talk about new recipes for baking, we talk about what food to get for the party for my P5 class, we talk almost about everything. We go shopping for party stuff together and have Hi-tea. Bwahahah. Cute ya? She taught me many many things, gave me chances to practise before the actual observation, help to support a bond between the kids and I, most importantly, to include me in their activities (making me feel a part of them) such as the NE show. It's another first time in my whole life to actually bring a class to watch the NDP - especially the last in Kallang Stadium. So its super unforgettable. I shall stop talking about my TA for now, I can ya dah non stop about it k.

25th September marks our 6 years together. I thought it will be a simple lunch and movie affair but the Love has surprised me with another bouquet of Gerberas (one of my favorite flowers). We had lunch at Pariss and I really (I mean really) feast on their grilled salmon! I couldnt count how many plates I ate! Bwahahahaha. I bought him a Braun Buffel wallet since his old one is cracking. He got me the wedding dolls and said that we shall open it on our wedding day. Remember my pullips? Heehee

Another good thing I did in 2006 is that I FINALLY started reading. I mean fiction books. I hate fiction actually. For all my silent-reading periods in school I have been staring onto the same page of the thin thin storybook and day dreaming. This year I dunno why but I am kinda influenced by Eve and Jas. So I started on a novel and told myself I must complete it. I was surprised that I fell in love with the story. So that boosted my interest and I tried to borrow similar books for a start - Romance. Read books that are of my interest before moving to other genres la. Haa

That's about it la, the rest I have already mentioned it at the beginning of this post.

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My resolutions for 2007:

1. Pass my TP test.
2. Get good grades.
3. The Love and I can earn more money, save up.
4. Hope for better friendships to fluorish.
5. All my friends and love ones in perfect health and happiness.