It doesnt really matter where you go, but the people you go with...

A great evening was spent with Cab and Christal the other day... enjoyed ourselves at Ding Tai Fung! I love the student meal they're having now! $9.80 for a drink, 3 xiao long bao and a choice of fried rice or any noodles! woohoo~~ After filling our stomachs with the sumptuous dinner, of course we need to have retail therapy to lift our poor spirits up since we've been so miserable for the past 2 weeks! Both of them got heels and sandals but I end up with nothing! *act-cute pout*

Once the clock strikes 7, its time for kboxing(term grabbed from eve)! We finally, and I seriously mean FINALLY, we made it! We've been talking about a kbox get-together since the 1st semester!!!! Yes, please worship our procrastinating skills!

Chris really sound like Jolin!!! and Cab definitely can handle guys' songs well! cab - actually ur vocal range very broad leh..... hmpf....
To think back... its really amazing how 3 of us can get along so well... different religion, different background, different size! haha we got XS, M and XL! BWAHAAHAAHAHAA

We definitely had a great time that nite! It was a nite with overloading information! Lots of secrets exchange that we keep reminding ourselves "KEEP EVERYTHING WITHIN THIS ROOM!" haha... Look forward to our next get-together!


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Jas's birthday was celebrated in a simple way, yet very exciting! We went to Cineleisure, had dinner st Cafe Cartel, followed by some shopping and then watched an exciting show! I personally like the twist in the story a lot, i love movies with a good plot! And seriously, Eve, who is supposed to 'protect' Yu, actually cringed in fear together!!!

After movie, we actually went to take neoprint! BWAHAHHAHAHAH We had such a busy time in there taking pictures, and editing pictures, not to mention a huge time was spent laughing hysterically in there! Walau if I'm the shop attendant I confirm angry with this bunch of siao char bo lor!!!


Yu and Jas


Eve and Me


Lovely us!!!


Hehe...shall wait for Eve to send me the scanned neoprints! We all look preety in there! Oh, Happy Day!

I am no longer who I am

Reflections for GESL, reflections for DCM, reflections for SBA, reflections after reflections... But, when was the last time you had reflections of yourself?

I realised I am no longer like who I was 4 years ago. We had our happiest times 4 years ago. We used to be so loving, because we experienced the feeling of gaining back something so precious that we lost before. I was then a girl with a very kind heart, so kind that I even helped a snail crossed its path, because I'm afraid a cyclist or someone inconsiderate will step on it and crush it to death. I used to be someone who was cheerful and friendly, always cracking jokes with others, someone who was always there for him, whenever he feels down.

But I have changed. I have become such a monster. I snatch seats on the mrt (because I have gained so much weight, and my legs hurt everytime i stand long), I talk bad things about people in front of them so loudly (thinking that they should know their own bad points so that they can change them), I have such a black heart now, I get easily irritated when people knock onto me or whatever. I've become so intolerant, impatient, easily-agitated person. I have gained so much weight and I have a fucking humongous tummy in me that people think I am pregnant. I have lost all my self confidence. I feel like shit now.

I used to ask him this, "What do you like in me?"
He said, "You have a kind heart, and very caring towards others."
I asked him this just now, "After being together for so many years, do you still think there is beauty in me?"
He asked "how do you define beauty?"
I said, " it might not be in terms of looks, maybe the heart or anything"
He said, "erm... yes ba"

I dunno what he really thinks, but I think that is a default answer. He seems not able to tell me if I am still attractive to him in any way. I personally think I have become such a failure in life. I have become such a bad and evil person. I feel bad inside me. I think I will get my retribution soon. Who knows I have already got my retribution? for having this terrible fucking big belly of mine, and that he can no longer hug me by my waist with one hand. I am so useless.

Memories just keep flashing back as I listen to this song - Looking thru your eyes. Memories of the old times, at World Trade Centre, the sea, the stars, the merlion, the breeze, the one and only genuine and lovely heart-to-heart talk, all the precious Vivien Special gifts, the greatest care and love I had....

Star light star bright first star i see tonight...
I wish I could, I wish I might...